Lowest energy self

I feel I live forever in search of my lowest energy self. By "lowest energy self" I don't mean depressed or tired or anything like that. I mean, most at peace. Most.... free of burden... able to accept... open to the now. In a bazillion little ways around us there are choices, or paths (I swear I'm not getting religious here), and I want to find the path of least resistance for each and every of a bazillion little things.

I want a uniform that I love. I want a hairdo that will flatter me (and I it) until my dying day. I want a signature color, and a signature cocktail. I want a home, a place for properly oriented morning sun salutations and a pantry for all the wonderful things I'm gonna eat. I want what probably sounds boring as hell. I want a low energy life.

I think from that, you can do anything. Base camp. Harmony with the universe.

But some might say, you can do anything now... so what's the point of wasting all that energy to "find" your lowest energy self, which you're never gonna find because it's you, and you'll keep changing. So just be.

And they might be right.