We all have our ways of coping with the blues. Eating, drinking, shopping, sleeping, smoking,.. to each her own. I have a small set of movies/TV shows that I put on when I'm feeling sub par. I'm not alone in this, for sure. Even my guy friends, when under pressure, might admit that their 48th viewing of Return of the Jedi
might coincide with feeling down and out.
My shows of choice are not static. For a while I relied on When Harry Met Sally and Sex and the City episodes. I've worn them out. I'm done with them for now, therapeutically speaking. (OK, that's kind of a lie because I did enlist seasons 4 and 5 of SATC quite recently.) The same happened with Singles, Wonderboys, The Wedding Singer, American Beauty, and others. Tragically overplayed. No longer uplifting. Temporarily.... tainted.
My current therapist of choice is
Julie and Julia. Maybe because it's about a struggling blogger. Maybe it's all the food and cooking, the A-list cast, or the perfect sets. For whatever reasons, I reach for it when my head needs the calm. I don't sit down and watch every scene, listen to every word. Instead it's just there. Like a friend.
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Julie's NYC apartment - not too unlike my own in style. |
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Julia's kitchen in France. |
But you know what?
It's not working anymore. Now, instead of regrouping while it's on, I just fret. Every scene goes too quickly. The Cobb salad scene, the sister's wedding scene, the canceling of dinner due to rain scene, they just keep coming! And they all point to the inevitable. The END! And with the end, you know what? Your problems. Your life. It's all right there in the credits.
And nothing has replaced it. Julie and Julia seems last in the line of this medicine. I tried Game of Thrones reruns, but the anxiety doesn't abate.
So I guess it's time there is no feel-good movie or TV show. Will something different help? Maybe it's a homemade, freezer-freeing soup experiment. Maybe it's a nod to clean the tub. Perhaps every reach for a well-worn DVD should be met with a 3 mile walk. Or a phone call to a friend. Or two hours in a novel.
I feel like a kid, holding her blankie, expecting the swift arrival of comfort and then... nothing. So I put the blankie in the closet, look around, and think, now what? Now how?
Modern Family reruns in the interim.